Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Kicking Ass, or Something

It's 11:30pm on a Tuesday.  I'm 28 years old and wondering what most normal people my age do at 11:30pm on a Tuesday.  Then I realize there is probably no such thing as normal, even though there seems like there would have to be.  But then again, what does it matter what most normal people, if there is such a thing, do at 11:30pm on a Tuesday, because they are not me and I am me and this is all I've got so I'll do whatever I damn well please, thank you very much.

So anyway, as I was saying, it's 11:30pm on a Tuesday, and I've had several glasses of wine.  I'm in California, as previously stated, and embarking on a kind of new beginning over here.  Old friends, new missions.  If I had to guess what normal people were doing, it would be something like, "developing their careers," "getting to bed at a reasonable hour," "getting ready for work tomorrow," "studying up on these marketing strategies," "being a real person."

Me on the other hand, I'm not a real person.  I'm merely a figment of my imagination, and maybe of yours too.  Sometimes it's a dream come true over here, and sometimes its a total nightmare.  Whatever it is, its conjured up somehow and brought to life.  Sometimes I feel like I have control over it, sometimes I feel like I'm being shoved this way and that.  

It's been a wild ride, all 28 years of it.  Well, maybe just a few less.  The first several years I can't quite recall.  But as far back as I can retrieve it seems to have been... words fail me.  There was a lot going on, we can just leave it at that for now.

I've been riding some kind of wave for the past several months that seems to be treating me well.  At this point I get the feeling that this wave is slowly fading out, but god damn did I get some great turns out of it.  Surf mojo is back, and I'm feeling like I've got a clear shot to paddle out and catch the next one.  Looks like a pretty good one coming my way.  

This last one was a bit of a mystery.  I pretty much paddled out into familiar but foreign waters, and dropped in on something gnarly.  Results were better than could have imagined, and I'm grateful the sun, and the stars, and the people that aligned to be a part of it.  

As for now, I guess I can't say too much cause I don't really know just yet.  I just keep believing I'll be better than fine.  I guess I have to, cause why else would I keep it all up?

Sunday, February 23, 2014

New Post Again

So, it has been a while.  Sorry about that.  And here I am, again, on the left coast USA.  Something about that Pacific Ocean, always calls me back.  I have my affairs with other bodies of water and other alluring landscapes, but time and time again, I find myself here at the edge of the North American continent, gazing west.

I had a plan (kind of) way back when I started this blog.  Then I guess I had another plan (kind of) when I disappeared for a little while.  And now I have no plan, and in a way I feel like I'm right back where I started.  But that couldn't possibly be, could it?  It's been 2.5 years since I last wrote here, and 3.5 since I first wrote here.  I must have gotten SOMEWHERE.  Right?  I would certainly hope so.

Many things have happened.  I abandoned you.  I feel I owe you an explanation.  But you know what, that's just not going to happen right now.  You'll just have to trust me that I had an interesting time while I was gone, and I learned some things, and it feels nice to be back.  So if you'll have me again for a while I'll try to tell some more stories.  Maybe you'll like some of them.

Sorry for the typos.  Sorry for the run-ons.  Sorry for the shitty grammar.  I hope you'll take me as I am.  I promise to always strive for better.

Is there anyone alive out there?  Can anyone hear me?